i know im not the smartest person but i honestly feel like my school is setting me up for failure. im doing state test on shit i haven't learned yet and that reflects poorly on me as a student. the school is understaffed and the whole school just seems rundown. i worry about a lot the future and doing bad in school doesn't help.
I feel really uncomfortable right now. I typing this in school and it's really cold in here. I doesn't help that I'm wearing a skirt either. I haven't wrote in a while because I realize I don't really have anything to talk about. I always think about making new friends but I realize that I can be very dry and that I get tired of talking really easily. I always thought about working on myself but I'm not sure where to start. I don't really know if I want to get better. I know it's cliche to say that no one really understands but I haven't really found anyone that has some of the weirder problems that I have. I most definitely can't tell my parents because it's always been hard to open up to them about my problems. I don't want to tell my friends the same old story again because I have yet to fix my problems. I'd like to express myself through art and music but I'm not good at either of those. I'm not good at teaching myself things. I'm only really good at doing what I'm told. I don't know how to close off this post so consider this the end.